Let's just take a moment of our precious time to contemplate chaos and calm...
We are all craving for calmness, we are all having as purpose the peace of mind, peace within our souls... Can we really be fully free from agitation or strong emotion without actually knowing the true meaning of confusion, of madness?
In the chaos, we find the calm they say.. but when chaos comes, are we really able and powerful enough to just sit and listen? Do we have the necessary strength to totally face it? Is it really all about discipline and self-confidence and experiences? Will those simple, but so complex skills are enough for us to find the answers and the way through the storm?
I can’t help but wonder if chaos and calm aren’t, in fact, some individual capabilities. We all react differently to life experiences, that is a well-known concept, but isn’t just the same with chaos? Can’t it actually be another relative notion?
Being, by definition, a state in which behavior and events are not controlled by anything will make this chaos notion as a general state, but we are all complex mechanisms, all driven by different fears, emotions, affairs.. what chaos can mean to me will probably be just random situation for others. It is still something uncontrollable, still something unpredictable, but just for my own perspective maybe.
Therefore, how can someone teach us how to find the calm in the chaos if this complex system whose behavior is so unpredictable as to appear random, is so personal, so distinctive? Yes, we can get help and assistance to go through the process, but the road is ours alone to take. The pain, the confusion, the madness that comes with it.. all is one’s own path only. And yes, it takes courage, determination, and strength to throw yourself in the insanity of this concept, to just accept it and continue to move along until we reach the destination and find that calm we are all looking for.
But why is the calm the landing place? Can we actually know calmness without chaos? Can it just be the same dualism as in love-hate, light-darkness, happiness-sorrow, etc? Are we mastering the calmness once we master the chaos?
For me, it seems so clear that they are all so tightly connected, that it’s a must to experience both notions, both states of mind in order to acquire wisdom. It cannot be that life is only one way to do things.
So, for a self-guided, let’s try to accept the chaos when it comes, without putting all our efforts into detaching our minds from this state, and fully embrace it.. probably we actually do not even need all the strength and self-discipline and past experiences to overcome the disorder.. probably we only need to understand, accept and in the end just sit still...
The final destination should always be the wisdom we acquire in the end, the continuation of self-improving...
Proverbs 12:25 “Anxiety in a man’s heart weighs him down, but a good word makes him glad.”
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